Alex's First Bath (and a couple other highlights)

WARNING: Infant nudity in this post.

You know how babies have that sweet baby smell? Alex’s is just as wonderful but by day 12 of life, he was getting a bit sticky. The general rule is that you have to wait until their umbilical cord heals and falls off before giving them their first bath. I thought this happened on day 10, but it turned out to be a raisin that Ashton had dropped on Alex’s bouncy seat.

Anyway, once it finally occurred Alex got his first kitchen sink bath. Only the best spa-like conditions for my baby! Luckily, it did not wash off his sweet smell 🙂

Right before the big event: greasy hair and dirt spit up on his shoulder.

It’s go time.

 Where’s my towellllll?

Squeaky clean 🙂

Like most babies, he loved the warm running water and had no problem lounging in the tub. First bath = success!
What has not been a success lately are the nighttimes. Alex has been super fussy, to the point where he seems physically uncomfortable due to gas or some other gastrointestinal distress. I took him to the pediatrician yesterday and we ruled out reflux because he doesn’t spit up or vomit. She  said it could be a lactose intolerance and advised me to cut out all dairy and soy. Sigh. This is not a new thing, I had to do it for Ashton too, but it’s hard! The cow’s milk protein won’t be completely out of my body for two weeks so there’s no way to see any results really until then. Ashton’s at Christine’s today so I need to hit the grocery as there is not much in this house I can eat right now. I think soy is going to be hardest – it’s in like everything. Very sneaky, soy is.
Also turning out to be unsuccessful are Ashton’s food allergies. His bloodwork came back and his doctor advised not to do the food challenges at this time. I guess it didn’t look as good as he thought it would. They will check him again in a year so there won’t be anything new on that front for awhile.
Ashton continues to be hit or miss with Alex. He does love to “hug” his brother, which is really him laying his head somewhere on Alex’s body.
But he also loves to rock or bounce Alex in whatever seat he is in to a precarious tipping point. I supervise, but I swear Alex is usually one degree from going over and I’m not entirely sure that’s accidental.
We’ve spent a lot of time this week out at the playground, scootering, and oh Ashton got a haircut.
The next time I take him I think I will spring for the crew cut. He’s never had a complete buzz (you know, with the little spike in front) and with summer coming…we’ll see. It’s just hair, so if it looks bad, it’ll grow 😉
That’s about all from our little household for now! 

I scream you scream

Sometimes when you are two and a half, you have bad days. Ashton has been having a bad week, at least when it comes to sleeping. Naptime approached yesterday afternoon and the all-too-familiar protesting began. Desperate to avoid a standoff, I did what I always knew was not beneath me: I bribed him.

A little background. There’s a new favorite book in our house called Steam Train, Dream Train. It was a gift recently, I really love it and so does Ashton. We read it a half a dozen times a day. One of the spreads looks like this:

It has spawned an ice cream obsession (Ashton has never really had it – most real ice cream has egg in it and besides maybe two soft-serves, it just has not been part of his life up until this point). So at naptime yesterday, when he was laying in his crib but threatening to cry, I said, “Do you want to go get ice cream? If you go to sleep, when you wake up we can go have some.”

I’m shameless. I know. Parenthood can make suckers out of the best of us. But it worked!

At 4 pm, I walked into his room to rouse him. I honestly wondered if he would remember. I opened his shades and saw his eyelids start to flutter. He rolled over on his back and stared up at me from his crib. Before I even said anything, he whispered: “I want ice cream now.”

That answered that. But I was happy to take him on his first real trip to the “ice cream store” and we set out for Rancatores in Belmont Center, where I knew they had great frozen yogurt (shhh!). He chattered on about his ice cream the entire way there.

“Ashton, what kind of ice cream are you going to get?”

“Blue.”

“Okaaay, are you excited?”

“Yeah! I’m going to take my ice cream and I’m gonna drink it.”

“Okaaay. Sure if that’s what you want to do.”

“I see it! I see my ice cream! Right here!” (and points to the local dog grooming salon as we pass it)

“Okaaay. Maybe there is ice cream in there but we are going to a better place.”

“Yeah! Because it’s my birthday.”

Ummm…not sure what to say to that one.

So anyway, we get there, I pick him up and point to all the flavors in the cooler. “Which one do you want?” (turns out many were egg-free)

A very distressed reply. “Noooo! No I don’t want dat!”

“You don’t?”

“Nooo! I want ice cream! Where is it?”

I explained to him that it was ALL ice cream but he looked very confused, presumably because it was all in deep tubs and didn’t look like it did in his book.

I ordered him vanilla. Toddlers often don’t like things mixed together or “bits” in their food (at least mine doesn’t) so I figured that was safe. Ashton saw the gummy bears in the jars of toppings and basically started to vibrate. I asked the scooper to add those as well.

Voila! The treat-de-resistance:

And the corresponding pictures (and who are we kidding, here is a video.)

 He kept saying, “I’m so happy!”, “Mmmm! That’s good!” “That’s yummy, I like it!” and of course, “It’s my birthday! Where are my cupcakes?” It’s sad to tell your toddler it’s not their birthday.

But the ice cream was such a novelty that he moved on quickly. “That’s COLD!”

Alex slept through everything.
Ashton even gave me a couple bites (side note: gummy bears are like the worst topping ever. They just freeze and you can’t taste them but have to chew them extra long). Anyway, it was a very fun, let’s say, 8 minutes. We cleaned up and were about to get going when two little boys slightly older than Ashton sat down at the table next to us. 
Well. They had cones. With sprinkles. Ashton’s happiness dissolved before my eyes. “I want dat! I want MORE!” And I kid you not, he actually walked back up to the counter, pointed at the cones and said “I want dat! I want dat!” with increasing agitation. Then he ran behind the register and I had to drag him out of there. I have a 50/50 chance that any given outing will end like that these days. 
I promised him the next time we had ice cream he could have a cone. And then we went and met up with Owen and they played at the “ice cream store” in the park.

So, all is well. At least I know what I have to do to make him go to sleep! I have a feeling there might be a lot more ice cream in our future…

We made it to April…

We’ve had a long few days around here. Last weekend, Ashton decided that he would start to climb out of his crib, oh, pretty much constantly. I would put him down for bed or a nap and before I could even leave the room, he had scrambled up and over the rail. This became a great game for him. If I ignored him and shut the door, he would wail at the top of his lungs. But when I went back in or attempted to put him back, he thought it was funny and time to play. It got really annoying, really quick. Sunday night was the worst, he climbed out at 1:30 am and never went back to sleep. At all. Jason and I took turns trying to get him back down but it was the longest night I can remember as a parent. Ever. Between Ashton and Alex I think there were a couple nights I averaged 2 hours of sleep total.

Over the past week, we tried to put Ashton’s mattress on the floor. Didn’t work. We tried to take a side off his crib so when he climbed out, at least he could get back to bed. Nope. We put the side back on and took the bottom off, so his mattress was on the floor but still contained. We thought surely he would not be able to climb out. He did. This is all accompanied by the sudden total fear of going to bed and of the dark. He now cries when I even mention naptime or bedtime might be approaching. I put him in his crib and he wants me to stay in the chair until he falls asleep. Lots of protesting “Mommy don’t go! Mommy stay in the chair!” and crying in general. What happened to my perfect 8 pm – 7:30 am sleeper with a 2-4 pm naptime??

It’s obvious there is a lot of acting out behavior going on with Alex’s arrival. But also, this new obsession with the dark definitely plays a role. Last night as dinnertime approached and the daylight faded, he kept pointing outside and telling me that it was getting dark. He also needs to see the crack of light from the hallway underneath his door, which has resulted in us keeping that on all night long. If we shut it off and he wakes up, he will cry, “I can’t see the light! I can’t see the light!” until we soothe him and turn it back on. He does have a nightlight too but I’m thinking I need to get a brighter bulb.

Anyway, we’ve had some long nights. Two nights ago he finally slept all the way through without climbing out, probably out of sheer exhaustion. Last night, he slept through again but at 7:08 am this morning, after hearing the telltale THUMP, the monitor revealed he had climbed out again. A few seconds later, “DADDYYYYYYY!!!” and wailing at the door.

The thing with parenthood? Always a new challenge. A friend of mine said that the hardest part about having two kids is not the baby, it’s the older one. SO TRUE.

Ashton is otherwise great, although we said goodbye to Fran this morning at our last Early Intervention session 😦 We will really miss her, she has helped Ashton come so far in the past year and tomorrow we will say goodbye to Allison when she comes for our final speech session. But while sad I know Ashton is ready to move on. He’s not perfect and we still have things to work on but Fran said she really thinks she has done all she can. I agree :-/ And speech wise, he is finally saying all those funny things that only toddlers say and it’s really been a joy to hear him learn to speak better and more effectively – I feel like it happened in a flash! The other night in the tub, he said, “I need my circles so I can see far away” and proceeded to make fists, put them above his eyes and crane his neck. I laughed so hard and said, “You mean you need your binoculars?” and he said, quite seriously, “Yes.” Not that I could blame him for not being able to say that word, but seeing him pretend with his fists on his forehead was pretty funny.

Anyway, because he has not re-qualified for EI and speech, we will likely not be going to Watertown Public Preschool which has a phenomenal integrated classroom program. He is enrolled at Belmont Nursery School and their summer camp weeks start in June (they do “water week”, “dinosaur week”, etc etc) and I might start him there before he goes full time in September. We all agree that while he is wild at home sometimes, he usually does well in structured settings and I think he will really like going to school. So that’s the latest with Ashton 🙂

The latest with Alex – he went to his 2 week pediatrician appointment yesterday and is up to 8 lbs 3 oz. A growing boy for sure! Jason took him and I had asked him to please mention Alex’s shoulders, which seem to me to be “loose” – when I pick him up they sort of feel like they shift or dislocate and I just wanted to make sure that was ok. Well Jason called me after and said, “His weight is great and everything looks perfect, except…” and I said, “What??” and he goes, “They put him in a tiny double baby arm sling! For his shoulders!”

“WHAT? Oh my god! What did they say about it?!”

[Cackling on the other end]: “April Fool’s! His joints are all still limber due to birth and are fine.” I couldn’t decide whether to laugh or murder him. I chose the former 🙂 But still. My husband thinks he’s so funny sometimes.

These boys are keeping me so busy I haven’t actually been taking many pictures! But here are a couple of the latest. 

I did my first solo trip to the park with both of them yesterday. Alex slept in his car seat the whole time (thankfully) and Ashton of course immediately got to work on perfecting his scootering:

It’s all in the lean 🙂
That’s all from the Nills for now! xox

That other shoe?

It dropped yesterday. My whole plan for the day went completely out the window when, about 15 minutes after we woke up, I realized Ashton had a nasty, nasty cold. He was wheezing, hacking and coughing and I just knew I could not send him to Christine’s. He made it through his EI evaluation and he did not qualify! Which is, overall, great news – he has made so much progress and all his skills now fall within the normal range. But bittersweet because Fran and Allison have become part of our weekly routine on Wednesday and Thursday mornings. They will each come one or two more times and that will be it :-/

Anyway, Jason left for work and I had resigned to spend another day inside playing trains with my boys as it was freezing out and Ashton was sick. But by 2 pm, Ashton was having a lot of trouble breathing and, long story short, we ended up spending two hours at the pediatrician. It was my first time out alone with both boys and let’s just say, I cried the whole way home. We were a collective disaster, I was that mom in my sweats that could not take care of both of her kids at the same time. Ashton himself would have been a lot to handle – he missed his nap, had two nebulizer treatments and ultimately a dose of steroids and we were confined to a little exam room for two hours (the albuterol in the nebulizer is a stimulant for “some kids”. Ashton most definitely is a member of that group.). Alex needed to be fed, thank goodness I had brought a bottle, because as I was feeding him Ashton took off down the hall and had I been nursing, I would have had to tear after him through the waiting room with my shirt open and the baby hanging on for dear life. One of those days.

So today we were home again because Ashton is still recovering and again, just no place to go in this cold weather. He’s doing much better and to his credit, despite being sick, still plays at the same level. I had to change Alex so I left him playing nicely with his rice box on the blanket:

Of course, two minutes later I came back downstairs:

Rice.was.everywhere. But I didn’t even care, the room needed to be vacuumed anyway. 
Then we rocked some shades for a while.

 And the rest of the day was the usual – duplos, books, Bubble Guppies on Nick Jr. We are definitely in our groove but the whole “not leaving the house” thing? Starting to feel it. Yyyyyep, starting to feel it.

I’ve gotten some questions about if we are sleeping, how the breastfeeding is going, etc. And the quick answers are: Alex sleeps in our room in the Fisher Price Rock N Play Sleeper (best thing ever) next to our bed on my side. He usually eats around 10:45 pm and then we go to bed. He’s up around 2 am for 30-45 minutes to eat and be changed and then again around 5:30 am for another feeding. He still needs to eat every three hours and it comes around quickly let me tell you, especially considering it’s 3 hours from the start of one feeding to the start of the next. I find he wakes pretty consistently and I don’t have to set an alarm or anything. He’s up for the day around 8. Luckily we have had no problems nursing but I really should pump so Jason can take one of the middle of the night feedings. What have I been doing? I should get on that.

Tomorrow Ashton has a followup at the pediatrician, my mom and sister come for a weekend visit, and we round out our second week as a family of four. Ashton’s asleep and this is my view right now:

Not bad 🙂 Sorry to everyone that I owe emails to and thanks for your patience!!

Turns out…

When you don’t really leave the house, not a lot happens. And when not a lot happens, you have next to no new blog material. We’ve been pretty cozy around here, spending most of our days in pajamas long past breakfast, playing with toys, reading books, and napping. It’s just too cold to be outside and I find myself not feeling the need to really go anywhere anyway. Which, for those who know me, is shocking. I don’t “stay home” very well usually but I’ve been oddly content for the past week. Things usually look like this:

Yesterday I put the baby on his blanket and Ashton laid down for “tummy time” too.

Alex sleeps a lot.

Other things that have happened this past week are: Grandma and Grandpa visited, Poppy and Mema visited, we went for our first walk, and Ashton coughed right in Alex’s face. If that doesn’t say brotherly love, I don’t know what does.
But this week we have some things going on for a change! This morning I left Alex with Jason (and his first bottles thanks to my new pump!) and got to take Ashton to his weekly class that Chera always brings him to with Owen. It was so cute to see all these two year olds sing, play, do artwork and sit together for story time. Ashton’s been going to this class through EI for months and this was my first time. When we walked in the door, he yelled, “My MOMMY’S here! My MOMMY’s here!” and I was so happy I thought my heart would burst. Speaking of EI, Ashton’s evaluation is tomorrow morning. It’s a 90 minute test and we are all pretty sure he will pass, which means he won’t qualify for EI or speech anymore. Certainly bittersweet but we will see what happens. A big day for sure. Today I was finishing up a clementine and Ashton said, “Mommy is all done eating that orange,” and then pointed to the peel and said, “And that is all for the trash.” I just couldn’t believe it. Sentences like that were nonexistent even a couple of months ago and he has come such a long way.
And Alex has come a long way too! We had our one week pediatrician appointment this afternoon. He weighed 7 lbs 3 oz at birth and then two days later (last Tuesday) he had hit 6 lbs 11 oz. So I was anxious to see what the scale said after nursing him what seems to be nonstop sometimes! Well, 7 lbs 9 oz 🙂 Almost a pound in one week! For the second time today, I was so happy and proud. My two boys are doing great 🙂
Tomorrow after Ashton’s evaluation, he is off to Christine’s and I’m going to try and get some errands done with the baby in tow. Time to venture out! And then Friday my mom and my sister come for the weekend, I can’t wait.
I’ll leave you with Alex’s one week (well, 8 days) old picture. It’s so hard to tell how tiny he is from the pictures but obviously he is super, super cute 😉 xox

When Alex was a bump

So I’m getting around to posting this a whole lot sooner than I did with Ashton. One thing I wanted to do differently this time was try to stay in the same outfit. I otherwise completely neglected my appearance as you’ll clearly see. Most of these were taken at night, sans makeup and after shower, etc. Jason’s not the most exact photographer and while some look a little out of order, this is the best I’ve got. They were taken starting somewhere around 17/18 weeks I think and from there, whenever we remembered…

I know this is another quick post, newborn and toddler are both asleep and I’m trying to squeeze in as much as I can on my “break”! 

Pictures

I won’t really have a super huge amount of time to blog for awhile :-/ But I’m going to try and stick with it consistently even if I just put up a few pictures every few days. It’s funny, some of the ones below were taken a couple days ago but I already consider them “old”!

Here are a few of my favorites since Alex was born. I realize he is wearing the exact same thing in each picture but I swear I change him. I just do laundry twice a day because he doesn’t have much that fits him :-/

With Daddy:

 Huge feet! This angle does amplify the size though, haha. When you weigh 7 pounds, “huge” is a relative term.

Hanging with his older brother:

Ashton always asks to hold the baby – he is getting pretty good at it although I still hold my breath because I’m afraid he doesn’t quite understand what “gentle” means.

Ashton also likes to pretend that HE is the baby – sits in the bouncy seat with a blanket over him and a paci. Haha,

So that’s where we are at! He sleeps a lot and has been doing great at night, waking up to eat and then goes right back to sleep. Knock on wood! We went to the pediatrician on Tuesday and he was down to 6 lbs 11 oz, but that’s still within the normal range of weight loss for a newborn. Everything else looks great, we go back again on Tuesday. 
In other news, my new breast pump comes today, I am sick with excitement because once I start to pump, I am freeeeee!! Haha not really, but at least someone else can feed him! It’s also not too early to be thinking about building up a supply for going back to work, but I can barely get that thought to cross through my brain at this point. It’s unfathomable. So for now, I’m just going to enjoy the next few months with my boys and go from there. 
Those are the main details after 4 days at home – Alex is up from his nap which means, gotta go! xo

Alex's Birth Story

So Alex was born super early Sunday morning and we came home on Monday! Jason, Ashton, Alex and I rolled in just in time for lunch and Ashton’s nap and things felt almost like they had any other day – minus our new little addition! We have been doing great the past couple of days, Ashton definitely has some adjusting to do and has been giving me a run for my money, but I’m reminding myself that bringing Alex home was no small change, for any of us.

Speaking of bringing Alex home, I thought I’d share the story of how he came into this world. I apologize in advance, there is just no way to make this sound good. So here we go.
Saturday, March 15th – full moon. Around 6 pm I just felt…different. I was three days past my due date at this point and knew things could start at any time, and had a feeling something was stirring. But I managed to eat dinner, Jason and I had our umpteenth conversation about what we would name the baby if it were a boy, and I went to bed.
Sunday, March 16th, 1:45 am – A very intense contraction woke me up. Not long after, another followed. I quickly started to time them and thought to myself, did these seriously start at 2 minutes apart?? Like, not 20, not 15…TWO. And they were getting stronger.
2:05 am – I wake up Jason and tell him, ummm, this is happening. I think. 
2:10 am – Jason calls Berg and Karen. We had told them a few hours earlier to keep their phone volumes up- they were our on-call friends to come over, sleep and be here in the morning when Ashton woke up. They said they were on their way and I changed, started to get ready to go, etc. The contractions were so strong a few of them doubled me over.
2:40 am – Berg and Karen arrive and we are out the door to the hospital. I had told them we were coming. The entire car ride, my contractions are still 2 minutes apart, lasting about a minute each, and it’s like an onslaught of the most intense pain that I do not ever get a break from. Little did I know, I never would. When I could get a breath out during them, I think I basically just kept swearing. 
2:50 am – we arrive at Newton-Wellesley Emergency Room. We do check in and the nurse walks us up to maternity. I have to stop several times due to the contractions, which basically make your whole body tighten up, it’s like someone is wrenching your insides into a clamp and you just want to explode. They, uh, really hurt.
3:00 am – I’m in the antenatal room, my contractions are even quicker and it’s to the point where my breaks from the pain are less than 45 seconds. I am 5 cm, in active labor, and things are progressing so fast that they are unsuccessful in getting an IV in. I think I freaked the poor girl out. Another nurse starts to try and basically says, “Screw it, there’s no time for this, we need to get you to labor and delivery” and wheel me out down the hall. Now mind you, this whole time I’m like swearing and moaning and just kept asking where my epidural was. Things were getting ugly.
3:15 am – I am in the delivery room, basically screaming. There are a thousand people all around me, running to and fro, setting up, calling the doctor, and at one point I realize, through the fog, that I will not be getting an epidural. I keep asking for one, how come it’s not here yet, and no one really answers. I was one of those poor souls for which it was “too late”. The pain gets worse.

3:16 am – Pain and suffering.

3:18 am – Pain and suffering.

3:20 am – I’m still screaming and writhing on the table and this feels like it is going on for an eternity. I vaguely recall yelling things like, “Do something! Please!” and “I can’t do this! I can’t! I can’t!” “Tell me what to do! I can’t breathe!” I am freaking out to such an extent that one of the nurses, in the nicest way possible, tells me to get ahold of myself. Looking back, I was just so unprepared to handle the pain, I didn’t know how to breathe properly or relax my body because a natural birth was never in my plan. It was like an exorcism, I swear. I start to get sick because of the pain. The force of getting sick causes my water to break. Probably the grossest feeling imaginable. Ever seen an elephant pee at the zoo? Like that much warm fluid, gushing everywhere.
3:22 am – I feel the uncontrollable urge to push – most everyone is set up (this is not a calm environment!) and the doctor is ready.
3:24 am – I’m still a disaster. To their credit, the entire time, the nurses have been really encouraging, “You can do this”, “you’re doing great”, etc etc. The doctor tells me to be calm and that I’m going to have this baby on the next push. Honestly, those words save me. I had no idea it was almost over as I could not focus on anything. 
3:26 am – I push again, we run into a serious snag. The cord is wrapped around the baby’s neck, so I actually have to try and be still/stop pushing while she clamps and cuts it free. That was a scary moment and one I remember vividly as everyone spoke deliberately and hurriedly in such an intense environment.
3:29 am – one final push and the baby is born. They tell me to look down and I finally open my eyes. The first thing I see as it comes out is a scrotum. I think I said, “Oh, it’s a boy” in a daze.
Due to the cord and the speed and sheer force under which he comes out, he has trouble breathing in the beginning and needs oxygen. But I eventually hear him cry and his second Apgar score is a 9. We have another son.
I honestly can’t believe how fast it all happened, and how much it hurt. I feel a little embarrassed at how I handled the whole thing but in the moment, I was basically about to float outside my body and never come back. It was really traumatizing 😦 Alex was totally worth it, but wow. A nurse told me the next day that if I ever had another (the idea of which renders me speechless), they would never let me wait to go into labor naturally – I’d be induced well in advance of my due date. I guess I’m the kind that gives birth by the side of the road after not making it to the hospital on time. 
Writing this all out still makes me shake my head and go “what happened??” Soooo different than labor and delivery with Ashton, which was much less violent haha. The whole thing was less than two hours but a hundred times more intense. I never imagined I’d have to give birth without drugs and it’s something I would never want to do again.
Anyway, here I am four days later and obviously still physically recovering. Will be for awhile. Alex is the sweetest of the sweet and I will try and post some more pictures in the next couple days. Thanks for sharing this incredible journey to two kids with me 🙂 xox

Alex's First Day

Just a quick post- our newest Nill is officially named Alexander Michael! Michael is Jason’s middle name and a family name on my side as well. We decided we liked the idea of both our boys having “A” names and after a little debate, our new baby was given his identity 🙂 oh and he measured in at 20 inches long. Alex had a great first day and is as sweet as sweet can be. He has blond hair and huge feet! We had visitors all day and Jason just left to go home to sleep. Ashton’s first meeting of our new little family member went well for the most part, except when he clocked him on the head with his toy truck. Ahhh brotherly love.

Anyway, Alex is down the hall in the nursery and I’m in the hospital room all alone- not the best :-/ but I’m going to try and get some sleep because fingers crossed we are going home tomorrow! More to come of course, thanks for all the well wishes and love!!






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It's a BOY!!

He’s here! We haven’t decided on a name yet but gosh did this guy come into the world fast! Whole story to come, but no epidural for me, three pushes, glad we got to the hospital when we did…that kind of story!!

7 lbs 3 oz born 3:29 am.

We haven’t sent any real texts yet as it’s so early so apologies to anyone who finds out here before we can tell them ourselves. Really just didn’t want to wake you!!


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